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I always feel so bad but in a few days i think wow, he or she still loves me after i told them, wow!

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Yes, exactly! It's just the "few days" between the telling and the realizing that we're still accepted/loved that are so, so, so hard.

I just talked to T about this at my last session. I had told him some things I hadn't shared before, and I realized that I was going to go home and feel really icky because I always have this period of time between telling and realizing I'm still accepted where I feel so anxious and horrible. He said "well, let's see if we can shorten that time" and told me how much he still accepts me, cares for me, etc.....and that if anything, I seem LESS "crazy" (my word, not his) the more he hears of my story. Did it help? Maybe a little, but it didn't totally fix it. Still had to go through the few days of anxiety...maybe just a little less than usual.