I do..... i feel a heavy tension in the air about any discussion of current events and politics. I feel like there's an extreme 'hush hush' atitude everywhere i go and that it's forbiddend to talk about anything that conficts with what the current administration is preaching. I feel like it's history repeating itself and freedom is falling to it's knees, and civil rights are blowing off into the wind. It's the same lound projecting sirin of times not long ago...'your either with us or your against us'. But this time Bush is trying to play that Jesus is leading the pack with the american flag blowing high in the wind. This is after all a religious crusade isn't it? At least inside this contry it is, and with the president touting Christianity, it seems only a matter of time before this country becomes the England of times past. Witch hunting will be common practice only instead of witches it will be terrorist. "we ask that you turn in to authorities any one who fits this description.....blah blah blah.....blah blah blah ..." But what about democracy you ask? "What about it, we gave you a choice didn't we, you voted, and clearly we won" they will answer.
- ... "But then again how do we know you won?",we ask. "What about all those election technical difficulties that are drowing under the siron that it was a..'Mandate, and don't waste all of our time. Bush won get over it'?
......And so we do what they say, we try to rationalize that maybe we were wrong and things really did go as smoothly as could be expected, where's the prof that any fowl was commited right? So we graciously move on and try to put a plug in our ears for awhile after all that's been going on in the last couple of years. At least now it's over and we have some time to rest and forget about it for awhile. ........But in the back of my mind at least i can't just forget about what may have happened. I care too much as it seems. I have to keep listening and not drowning it out with a smile and wishful thinking. But what do i say to my fellow commrads that refuse to pay attention and let the steam roller of an administration flatten what i've grown to know and call America. And what do i say to everyone else who feels the same way? I have no %#@&#! clue because i feel if i do i'll just be a target of discrimination and harassment thereafter, so why come out of my shell?
All i can say right now is I feel like this whole damn administration is just one big "confilct of Intrest", and today, when my realization of the term to sum it all up occured, all i could do what laugh silently at how amazingly well that said it. 'If only i could play out the pictures in my mind to people...' i thought, 'it would be so %#@&#! hilarious, the kind that only deperation and exhaustion permits, but at the same time it would be depressingly real.' 'Maybe i should make a documentry like others have done?' i ask. 'Or maybe i'll just get a giant, wall of a canvas, and paint out my masterpiece for others to stare with jaws wide open thinking... wtf? It could be like the turn around in "pleasantville", the movie with the guy that played spiderman. And if i drew half as much insight and realization into the minds of viewers at that moment, as they did in that movie, i'd be a happy man. -J>L