I can't remember ever feeling this low and i don't know what to do. I don't want to do anything, and feel so weird and out of it. I went to the art/craft store today and the whole time i was out, i didn't even feel like me. I felt like i was on auto pilot and that someone or something else was operating my body, even when i was driving.
I still feel that way but not as intensely. All i want to do it seems is cry and i'm not a crier. I'm just so tired of this and it seems to get worse with each day.
Ever since i left my shrink's office the other day i've been off and it just keeps getting worse and worse and more intense.
I don't even know what my point is or why i'm bothering to post my rambling...I don't know anything anymore it seems. Everything seems so pointless and like a bother. But i don't know how much more of this i can take. And what if it's possible to get even lower? Then what? I don't think i can keep acting like i'm fine in front of my mother either. And I don't want to deal with her being on my case.
What does one do to make it all stop? I don't like this ride and i want off...