I haven't always worried about being alone, it just seems if I look back, everyone who I have loved seems to leave my life, by death and breakups or friend betraying me, etc. My son's death in march has really made it worse in my mind because he was all I had left, my unconditional love that would always be in my life, i thought then when he died, I am really worried about being alone, but I also feel like this because as far as relationships go, I like being in a relationship, I don't want to date around, etc. I'm so afraid that i will never find love again.