I am not sure where this belongs, but this category seemed the most logical.

All of my life I seemed to be unable to relate to people. It is like a invisible wall that I have with those around me. I have had only a couple of close friends and last year I had my only two real life long friends renounce me based on some trival sh**t that was not my fault (its a story that is far too long for a post) When I go to parties or events I always end up in some corner alone. People will talk to me out of politeness, but no one is genuinley interested in what I have to say.

I try hard to be witty, clever etc.. but it always seems to fall flat. No one ever gets me. I simply was born without charisma and charm. I try hard to be an active listener, asking people relevant questions about themselves and their interests. I try not to talk about myself, because I have been told in the past that was the root of my problems with people.

Even here I try to positive and helpful but no one seems to care about anything I have to say. I try chatting on here from time to time but very few people will ever engage me for more than a couple of seconds.

I wish I understood what was about me that put people off. I hate feeling alienated all the time. I have to attend on of my wife's coworker's wedding in a month and I am dreading the event. Even at family get togethers people do not really talk to me beyond "hi, how are you?'

Lately this is making me rather depressed. I just wish I could be a real part of some community but I never feel like I am, just an out cast... This is not a knock on anyone here at all by the way. I do not believe anyone here has deliberatly been cruel or mean to me here in anyway.

I guess I am just a very dull and uninteresting person, whose presence is simply tolerated.

sorry for the long post, just trying to get this out there

Thanks TJ