I feel like just quitting and saying 'i'm done' with meds.

Since forgetting to take my meds when I went away for a few days and experiencing withdrawal, it has opened my eyes to what they are doing to me.

These drugs are having a huge effect on chemicals in my brain. Changing my mood, personality and who I really am.

I feel go through feeling overly tired, heading towards manic, bingeing and feeling sick all at different times due to these drugs in my body.

It just doesn't seem right to me.

I know I should speak to my doctor before coming off anything. But I wonder, what does the real me want? What should I believe, as there is science to support both sides of the arguement.

Do I want to come off, deal with my real emotions and risk my moods becoming lower, behaviour becoming more impulsive and dangerous but all to make me feel more at one with myself and to know what is really me again. Along with possibly feeling ok once withdrawal has gone. Or do I continue the meds, continue putting these chemicals inside me to keep going on this never ending path of not knowing what is best?

I don't want to, and find it hard to accept that I may make a wrong decision.

I've been on over 10 different meds over the past 18months and I feel like they've all done something to me, but do I want to be changed?

Has anyone else made this decision? Any ideas would be appreciated.