Sorry, I didn't know where to post this, as it is not positive really.
Anyway, as I mention a lot, I'm 24, but I have never been in a relationship before, had sex ever, or been on a date. It's not that I don't want to, it's just that I'm too afraid to talk to guys. I've never had any guy take me seriously as more than a friend, or the girl to take advantage of with sex. Granted, I have never had sex, like I mentioned, but I really feel those are the only guys I can get.
I don't know, it's also disheartening to want to date, but not being able to because I think there is something wrong with me, like I'm not pretty enough or popular enough. I think those are the 2 reasons, which I know make no sense to why I can't get a date. Sure, maybe in high school those were good reasons, but as an adult, I sure hope they aren't good reasons. I also look at couples, and see the trashiest of all people with someone, and it makes me feel bad. What I mean by trashy is people who are physically dirty, gross, have no life goals, and don't care about that stuff at all. I mean, if they have someone and get married, why can't I? It just makes me feel so much worse off than them.
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"I don't want the pretty lights to come and get me."-Homecoming 2005
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