Too often I avoid and withdraw and I can't find my way out even when I want to. Alone it isn't so bad, but in session it is miserable.

It was like that last night. Nothing went right, recent anger with her crept in, her vacation is coming up even though it's only a week. I felt like I was literally moving away from her gradually and slowly through the session. Words wouldn't come. Everything she said sounded mocking or negative in some way; I knew it was me doing that but it didn't help. I was able to tell her I felt intimidated but I was not able to elaborate on much of anything. What a zero I am.