I know it is difficult to express feelings, thoughts to family. It's also difficult to maintain the face of calm around others.

I'm glad you decided to write down some of your thoughts and feelings. Many of us here have gone through similar conflicts.

Sometimes it is easier for me the just write and let the words flow. It's like once they are out of my head and down on paper, I can move on.

As a frog of little brain I can't really offer and sound advice but I'm always willing to listen.

(((( cafegrrrl )))))