one foot in front of the other, you can make it, gather support from several sources, you never know when you might need them... it is so hard to put on the 'im fine act' .. i had to do it as a cashier for several years and if anything, i'd say it made matters worse.... find a safe place to express yourself where you arent judged by your thoughts so much, its good to explore different and new ideas, connecting things in unusual ways sometimes gives us the answer we need... you are smart and thoughtful, i have good hopes for you...