Hi Tim,
I'm sorry you are struggling with this.
One sentence you said touched me :
" I try not to talk about myself, because I have been told in the past that was the root of my problems with people. "
I wonder why people have said that to you? It's funny because people told me the opposit. Some people told me if I don't talk at least a bit about myself people will think that I do not trust them, therefor, I come as if I am not trustable either.
((((((((((((((Tim))))))))))))))