Hi Minime!

I too have PTSD and since I began intensive treatment my moods have been like a roller coaster. Like you, when I have the flashbacks I am depressed and always thinking about suicide. But when the "clouds" clear I feel happy and am able to function like a normal person. The difference is remarkable. For instance last Saturday I was going to die. But by Thursday it was like I never felt that way.

Keep your head up and keep working with your T. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. At least that is what they tell me.