Cafegrrrl: HANG IN THERE! I know how you feel as I am right there in those feelings with you.
Its tough and you feel like giving up, but just keep spilling out your thoughts on here. I am just starting to do that as well. I don't care what I say or what others may think, as I type how I am feeling in the 'now'!
You just keep doing the same and I also hope you trust your pdoc or T enough to really feel comfortable and open up!
Seamoods