Monty Girl- it's not your fault your having trouble knowing whats going on.
what's so wrong with the why you clean the house?
You know- if you can( like I do because of same reason) work mostly SOMEHOW from in the home, what do you like doing?
It does feel like your life has been taken away from you, yes I know but there is a strength in you that will help you through this and you'll see how truely NOT a waste of space that you could never be!
Normal is boring. I know this is hard but really Normal isn't that fun from what i've seen.
I feel like 'throw away the key' thing too but we have to go thro this, find out why this is what we we're delt and somehow embrace all the good from it.
Somehow i know is hard and takes so long BUT you have to fight.
I'm very sorry if some of this doesn't make sense, trying but is still hard to get words out like this.