I never thought of it that way before re: would I feel guilty if I had a disease....No
No...guilt doesn't fit into what happened to me as a kid ...it really makes sense that way, but reading this makes total sense , living it doesn't. I will try to remind myself this tho.
That is what I want, to be there for the ones I love-they keep me trying as hard as I can EVERYDAY. A fight that feels unfightable somedays but really cool others. My husband likes the way I am except the very Angry, angry side or the Very very helpless side, I think I floor him, make him feel scared, angry etc. I feel sorry for him yet part of me still rejects him, quickly ahhhh I'm going off on a limb.
I hope we all one day stop feeling all this guilt cause you know with out it, It makes the healing easier and I find giving love easier too, when I'm able to just forget about the guilt for a few hours.