Something feels safer about talking to people who have some of the same feelings and experiences, and also don't really know who you are, doesn't it?

And the combination of chemicals that your body releases which are natural pain relievers (endorphins) and dissociating, or distancing yourself from your body and reality can make it possible not to feel.

Sometimes that's what it's all about - just not feeling, and distancing from the problems. But all of that is avoidance, and while it can get you through right now (that's why we do it), it never solves anything. You don't really learn how to talk to a real person and build trust and relationships, and you don't learn how to do something about your problems. They don't get better and might get worse, and you have fewer real life resources.

Mental health professionals keep confidentiality if possible. If you are a minor, you might want to ask him about what kinds of things he has to tell your mum. Then you can decide if you feel safe enough to tell him enough for him to be able to help you to really cope and have the kind of relationships you want and need IRL, and for the stuff that's bothering you to start getting fixed.

Good luck and please let us know how it goes!