Congratulations on three months! Wow. I believe you will be able to do this for yourself also. As you heal hopefully you will see that you deserve the compassion as you show others. I am also glad you have Phil. I know how important that has been for you.

I can relate to your feelings of the scars. Maybe they represent to you some relief you felt from SI. But you have now found new ways to get the same relief that is not harmful to yourself. You have just changed your focus. It is hard to lose something that has been a part of you.

I am glad you are discussing this with your T as it is such a big part of healing. If you can keep exploring these feelings and he can help you understand and deal with them constructively.

BB