((((((((((((Pegasus)))))))))))))
Hang in there. It's so hard when I have realizations of my thinking from childhood. It's almost like it shakes the whole foundation because it was the basis of my thought process. I think it's wonderful that you are becoming more aware of this. T says awareness is the first step to change. I feel pretty messed up myself but our T has been able to help us see that it can be different.

I think you're doing well Pegasus. Change comes about slowly and it's hard work. Good job for sticking with it even in times like this.