(((((((silversparrow)))))))
I'm sorry you are in so much pain. It's good that you told your mom you wanted to go to therapy. The people around you irl can't know about your pain unless you tell them and it sounds like maybe you started doing that today?? Maybe you said it in the heat of the argument, but she said OK, so please do go to a therapist....someone who can understand you, be on your side, and help you....

wishing you some peace today,
ktgirl