griffe i am sorry you are having such a bad day.....i am not sure exactly how you are feeling .....but i do care and i can see you are in alot of pain my friend.... safe and gentile hugs if you want them .... you need to take care of you for those that love you just try to keep that in mind sometimes that is the only thing that keeps me going is thinking about how it would hurt thouse that i care about if i were hurt or gone.....take care