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sunrise said:
Hugs are so powerful. Hold on to them. Sometimes I think of these "gifts" from T as talismans of a sort. I can whip them (their memory) out of my back pocket in times of need.



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That makes a lot of sense. SHe's hugged me on several occasions, but they always fetl akward... and I had a lot of judgement around my self - was I even "doing" it right? I'm not a real huggy person.

But this time, I had missed this person (hey look! T became a person!) so much and had attached in a really different way - like someone i know and trust vs. some one who will adopt me- and seeing her SO happy to see me! I mean..me! I dunno... it was... really different. I felt really loved - as me - not as someone who *has* to be "cared for". That moment is a keeper.