((manda))) i understand how you feel, like hitting rock bottom and thinking it doesnt get worse, but it does at times and even worse still is how it comes and stays and stays and stays...

its really hard to do right now cause you are feeling so badly but when you can, give yourself a push to go get help from the places available in your area.. these could be clinics or therapists or hospitals or self help sections at the book stores... find some local groups if you can and make friends with others also trying to heal.. its a huge effort and you need a lot of tools and a lot of hope and faith... and a lot of really good friends and supporters who care for you.... you can make it if you try...