((Rain)))) you are not alone in so many ways... i wont count them all, but you have friends and caring others who are listening and do care... you can find the inner strength you need through them... they believe in you and will uplift you and carry you through these difficult times and help in any way they can every inch of the way...

in my experience ive felt alone and abandoned at times... and when i was at my lowest points the smallest kindnesses were like miracles to me because they were the unexpected kindnesses of my environment... i gained strength in the knowledge that the universe or God Spirit does in truth want what is best for me if only i do all in my own power to assure my good health, and listen and wait for the healing acts to appear.. the patience factor.... its worth it hon, give it time and you will receive that which you need most and more... praying for you always...