Ya know sqrl, that's funny. I too am the disappearing type when I get in "crash brain mode". I hunker down and totally keep to myself, which was part of the problem I was having with being at my job yesterday, I'd been pulled out of my hunker down mode of the weekend and I was being deprived of doing what I know to work, which is why I became so desperate in needing to reach out here. I was being bombarded from all angles, internally AND externally, it became overload and I needed some kind of release, I got that here. But had I been home, you guys wouldn't be hearing from me. If you look at my user posts, I haven't posted in several days. I disappeared. Disappearing doesn't make anything okay, it just means I'm not spuing(sp?) my guts all over everyone, and therefore no "clean up" after the fact. Know what I mean? Perhaps I am a little too concerned with my "public" persona, a product of my upbringing, and probably a product of all the bad "press" I've received from past experience. Gosh, that hurts. No, it's humiliating and breeds shame and guilt. Who needs that? And that's the worst part of insomnia, laying awake reliving the humiliation, shame and guilt...all the taunting, haunting voices of ones past. Why pile up more to dwell on. I've got enough already to last me a lifetime of insomnia, lol.

Anyway, that's my thoughts about that. TgrsPurr.