Hi there, and welcome. It's good to meet you.

I can't imagine.

Honey, do yourself and her future clients a favor and tell her these things or even show her this post. T's don't always know when they've messed up big and showing them that only helps you and anyone else they might see. Only do that if you feel you can, though.

I can't imagine how you felt when discussing the death of your precious newborn. I'm just so sorry.

Yes, we don't always have good matches with our t's and have to change and this might be one of those times. It doesn't sound like there has ever been a good "mesh"? If I'm off on that, I apologize. I just feel I sense that from your post.

Please don't give up on therapy altogether, though. There are great t's out there...caring t's. T's who will have the patience needed to deal with a survivor of cult abuse. Is there a way that you can "interview" a few, describing your childhood and this past therapy and where it went wrong? From there, and explaining all this, you just might find the perfect match for you.

I wish you more than well, and please keep us updated.

KD