T casually mentioned that he "won't be here" from Wednesday, August 20, to Wednesday, August 27. He mentioned it as if was the most unimportant, small detail in the entire world. We set up a session for Tuesday (the day before his vacation) and I have one for the Sunday before that (which means I'm probably really not going to be able to afford the Tuesday session). Anyway T didn't ask anything about how I felt in regards to him going away, and I totally avoided the topic. Soooo now I have no idea if this is one of those "no contact" vacations, or if it is one in which he'll be around and able to take phone calls.

Last year when he went away, it was the first time in the three years that I have been with him, that he wasn't returning phone calls. During Christmas, he wasn't around, but he was returning phone calls

I realized that he will be away on my first two days of doctoral school (I only go on Tuesdays and Wednesdays). This makes me feel sad, like a little girl who is going off to school and needs her parent to put her on the bus, but the parent is not there.

The morning that I started my job, I was a wreck, to put it mildly. I called T on his cell phone and he helped me so much. I doubt I'm going to be a wreck on my first day of school, but it is a very big deal to me. If this is a "no contact" vacation, it will really suck, because chances are, I would want to talk to him very much on my first day of school.

I don't have a session til next weekend, but I'm going to talk to him in between to find out if there will be any contact or not.

STUPID VACATIONS!! %#@&#! %#@&#! %#@&#! %#@&#! %#@&#! %#@&#! %#@&#! %#@&#!