(((Bowzz)))) im so sorry youre having this difficult time right now... i know at times ive asked the same question.. its truly difficult to trust that what is happening could have any good meaning at times... try to think of on thing when it is so hard and you feel like you cant take more.. try to imagine how absolutely great it will be once this current trouble has passed... if you can, try to treasure every moment of peace you've had in the past and pray for more of those and less of this (current trouble) ..

Spirit, or God, or the Great One hears all pleas from all... i think the more sincere we feel the prayer in our hearts, the more impact it may have upon Spirit... it may send such a deep and powerful connection to the Spirit that IS that the help you need goes deeply into your core being and slowly begins to spread outwards into every part of your life... sometimes such deep emotional waves take time to develop and expand... it is necessary we keep that healing spirit alive within us for it to work... i will keep praying for you, dont give up the faith...