I am not feeling too strong.
I just feel like life is crashing in from all sides and although I am trying to gain cover from the wreckage what I am finding is it is just piling up on top of me...almost oddly protecting me.
I should be able to get myself out of this.
It has been a long time since I have been this emotional and having tapes play in my head. I don't want people who think I am healthy and talking with me again to back away because that is what happened before.
It is like, I can keep shoving it all in or I am going to fully burst...arrgggg!