I just spent two nights away at a music festival. I went by myself so I was feeling kind of lonely, seeing all the couples and groups there. Being lonely is a big trigger for me to drink. Plus I really associate staying alone in hotel rooms with drinking. Something I've always done for years. Plus I was eating in the hotel for dinner becasue it was convenient, but it also happened to be a very lively bar - they even had my favourite beer on tap. But I didn't drink. I did wish I could drink, for a couple of minutes when I saw all those people sitting around with pitchers of beer - but I reminded myself, how f'd up I'd get if I started drinking. The urge to drink passed within 5 minutes and I just continued reading my book.

Having survived this weekend is making me feel a lot bettter about remaining sober on my upcoming Berlin trip.

--splitimage