Ya, like becoming more aware make sense, like hearing what they want too instead of just screams or nothing before that. I don’t get it, how can I go so long feeling like I’m not normal, that part of me struggles with part of me but never ever thinking this is what it was, course I didn’t know anything about it except a name and that people faint or black out when they have DID/MPD, until T told me. So he tells me that my screaming parts are really parts, ugh. Blah blah and then to see what they want- I do that, and Sheesh will this ever calm down? I have so many kids, I sure don’t need chatting in my brain on top of it and whats more a problem is the going from one state to another and really trying to remember what I last felt, It’s getting harder the more aware I am because I’m trying to stay me. One really good thing tho is that my family life might stay my family life, cause I from the back of angry side can say stop and now ‘sometime’ that side will listen( except rants some weird stuff), I have to find a way to reach out to sad me next, ahhh. ( that is scary)