((Pegasus))))) i dont typically post in this forum but i see you are really struggling and really trying... i care... its so hard not to feel accepted into society.. being an 'outsider' isnt too fun either... i have to tell you that i do understand how badly you feel at times and i hope you can work thru this.. if its an error of the past there is time to correct it.. btw, thinking and feeling like a child at times isnt so terrible? the laughter, joy and wonder of a child is something to cherish imo... and you work with children.. wouldnt that influence in some way?

Pegs, you are not a bad person.. we all have growing to do... its ok that we recognize our needs.. wishing you the best always...