you are welcome ((Pegs))) i actually identify with what you've said very well... so many times ive wondered was it me who was unable to feel, or others who were unable to understand me and it was such a confusing and sad time in my life... you are trying Peg and that is how you will get there.. it really takes a lot of time and suffering (in my experience) but i am happy to report to you that after 30 years i do feel better! just never give up ok? hugs to you ~ ~