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that I cant think back to a time when mum held me or seemed to be enjoying me...I mean not one. I've questioned myself on this incase I may be exagerating

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I have had this same experience. Your post made me wistful and I remembered once when I was in the market in town as a child. I saw a woman I thought was my mother and I went over to her and gave her a big hug from behind. When she turned around, it was a stranger. I was horrified.

Peace to us because T is away after this week too.