((((((((((((((((lostangel))))))))))))))))))

You sound like your having a pretty hard go of it. I hope you can get past all your anger and try to deal the best you can. I'm sure things must be difficult but for the kidds sake, all that fighting can't be good for them.
I'm not being judgemental by no means. It just makes me sad when kidds have to indure things that are ment for adults. I know your feeling sick and confused hun but try and be the bigger person. You may just be able to find a better way and cop.

Good Luck and I hope tomorrow brings a better day!

Jacqui