Hi
I just wanted to tell you that I envy you! You're actually on your way out of a fake relation that had no future.
I know how you feel and I am sure that it is painful, but you know the truth is ugly and hard to handle. However, you're doing a great job.
The facts that you decided not to be where you are not wanted as you said, that you're going to heal and that you are not denying any of the reality no matter how cruel it is, just make me admire your strength!
You never know what is best for you, but honestly, I wish you the best and I know that a better life and a better lasting relation is waiting for you to heal.
Don't forget to open your arms for a new life and start over, congratulations, you're FREEEEEE!
Forgive me if I wound superficial, None of what I am saying can make the pain less I am sure of that, but I hope that it can help you to keep your eyes on one little bright side.
Good luck.