I havent written one of these yet, so please bear with me.

Basically, i am going to the doctors this week with annorexicia, urm, my godmother is making me go. But i know why i have been suffereing with this for nearly 3 years now, i havent been abused or anything horrible like thta. But its all to do with attention, and its not even like i dont get it, cos i do, and i always have, but im not cleaver or pretty, and i honestly dont belive that i can get attentiona nyother way than being ridiculasly skinny or unhappy.

Its like i test everyone, so that if they spent time with me or talk to me, or anything- it shows me they care. Thats really selfish of me i know, but i just have to have taht attention. Then i feel really unhappy if i dont get it, i do it aswell with boys, i have got into horrible relationships cos of that, and i have been sexually assulted because of taht to.

Does anyone else have the same thing? is it really terrible? Can i get any help from it, or will i always be like this? i would love a email or like repl please, cos i hate it, so so much. Thnaks for reading! clo xxxxxx