Tomi, I've read everything posted.

I reserve comment only because it isn't what you want to hear.

On attitude, it once again gets back to the chicken and egg question.

My opinion on my appearance originated somewhere, right?

We all start with a clean slate in childhood and, as I've stated, mine was good. I had high self esteem before I reached puberty, had many friends, and I wasn't a bad looking kid.

Did things ever change during and after the teen years.

I was constantly teased and abused verbally and sometimes beaten up by the other kids. I was always called nasty names which refer to my appearance.

These comments hardly stopped after high school and continue to this day.

Here's just one of many examples. I was minding my own business and in a pretty goood mood while waiting at a traffic light. Two women were in the car next to me with their windows also rolled down. One said "Hey, he's cute!" the other said "Yeah, but compared to WHAT?" They both started laughing like crazy. I took my half finished Slurpee and threw it all over them. They sure weren't laughing anymore but they deserved it for being so cruel.

I'm just supposed to have a good attitude??????