I worry about falling into a trap.
When I try to recover, I inevitably end up taking a few steps back.
School is edging to start and as I try to reduce my b/p cycles, I worry that they will increase in number or severity as they have in the past.
It seems that when I give more attention to my bulimia symptoms, even in an attempt to recover, the worse they get.

I wonder if I should push off recovery and stay as I am, at least until the stress of entering into a new semester of school is over.