Ya know, I have a lot of alters and it is still hard for me to stop the denial. It is so hard to admit how bad it really was; I was too good at hiding the truth from myself. What helped me survive childhood keeps messing up adulthood!!! ARGGGGHHHH!!!!

You really spoke it truly, Jinnyann, when trust is so betrayed it is terribly hard to ever trust again. It is so easy to run and hide when the slightest thing happens to me and I don't want to keep on doing that.

I hate the word abandonment. It is one of the hardest areas for me to acknowledge - that there was absolutely no one who ever did right by me - of all the adults in my life. I know it is hard to believe a statement like this, but I'm not even exaggerating, it was true.

Being alone is what I do best...and it is a curse.

Leslie