This kind of important question can't be really answered by strangers in a forum.

I can say that childhood physical, sexual and emotional abuse had very bad effects on me and damaged the way I relate to people and how I feel about myself and about sexual intimacy.

Any person who has been raped will have some pain and issues to deal with. Rape is a terrible violation of ones trust and ones very being. It is horrible.

I'm sorry this happened to you and I hope you can find the help and healing you undoubtedly need. I'm not sure if anyone can get through such pain all by themselves. I know I've needed some counseling help and some support from others. Doing things to pursue healing has helped me get better from my painful past.

Leslie