Maximoh,

Your mother's actions are VERY abusive. Nothing a child does EVER makes hitting and screaming at them acceptable. Your father should defend you and it is wrong that he doesn't help you. They are both wrong.

You are feeling depression and anxiety - sadness and fear. No one can rest well when they feel they are in danger.

I feel very bad for you and your brothers. I will pray for you, but it seems so little from so far away.

IF you can, please TELL SOMEONE, anyone you think you can trust. ASK your boyfriend if he will help you find some assistance to deal with this. It is wrong what is happening to you. Don't give up hope. When I was young, my life was terrible. I was beaten and sexually abused and went through some real horrors - but I'm 55 and I'm still here and I'm getting better all the time.

Don't you think the police or health department would do something to help you and your brothers??? Are there any religious groups that help young people and children? I really wish I knew just what you could do to get some help.

I know we don't talk about God much on here, but there is a God and He is GOOD. He does care and He hates what is happening to you. He's the one who gave me the love and hope to keep going. Jesus does care!

Keep talking on here and at least let out some of what you feel here, it may help a little. Hugs!

Leslie