I posted this yesterday and I am still searching for answers. Does anyone have suggestions or a clue of how I deal with my current feelings and how I move past them?
This was part of what I posted and part of what is wrong:

"There is nothing worth the price I have paid as a woman and as a person and so very much has been taken away. I always had trust issues with men before. Now I am afraid I will never be allow myself to feel anything for a man again.

I used to be very happy with my appearance and now I have a hard time going to the grocery some days because I feel so horrible about myself.

I used to love being around people and never was shy or intimidated. I was full of confidence. Now I would rather stay home alone as much as I want to go out because even just thinking about it gets me stressed.

So, I got to see Norway. Could've done that on vacation. I made a good friend and know a few people but I had that in the states. I learned a new language. Language has never been a desire or strong point for me and norwegian is basically useless unless your in Norway (and that depends on which part) or you meet a Norwegian outside of Norway.

I learned from my friends and family back home that I am on my own. They care but not enough to keep in touch or help me when I begged for it. "

Heidu


The highest reward for a person's toil is not what they get for it, but what they become by it.
John Ruskin