1day, you said you never held hands with a guy until meeting your husband. I'm sure that happened at a FAR much younger age than I am now and maybe you could have sooner and were given the opportunities but made the choice not to. There's no comparison to my situation.

SpazKatt, people are picked on for different reasons. Yours couldn't have been the same as mine.

Tomi,I have valid reasons for not taking medication because I'm too aware of the dangers. I don't think that's something we should really not get in to here.

Therapy can change one's attitude, not their looks.
I'd go around with a false sense of confidence and only set myself up for even more frustration and sadness.

There's a difference between saying something nice to another person and telling them a lie, a big difference.

I've since found out my neighbor doesn't like me as a friend. I guess she thought I was nice, as I heard her say but there are, unfortunately, unwritten rules of not even associating with unattractive guys. There's peer pressure even with adults.

What do I want? Just to be understood, that's all.