trusting people opens yourself up to getting hurt. But there's a reason we do it... I dunno :/
Don't draw away completely... at least for me the farther I got from other people the more problems keep coming.

I agree with Downinnatick, you don't need to let your guard down completely but that it's important to be a part of the world for your child. I can't even pretend to know anything about being a mother - I can barely take care of myself - but I DO know that my mom kept me away from others in a wierd way. I don't think she did it on purpose. But the end result was, in part, and I dont think it was all her fault but that she just contributed, is that I don't know how to get out. I'm lonely, I dont know how to relate. I can't trust. And when I started opening up I started having a really hard time so... maybe think about it some. Try to get out just for some more companionship and for your child.

Sorry if THIS post is out of place. I hope you can figure thinks out... I hate it when you trust someone and they let you down... that's happened to me a lot latey.

*hugs* and good luck