Sorry. I guess I will never understand you, then. I have tried and am trying, but it's hard to understand when the person you're talking to clearly has a warped perspective of himself and others.

Gary, you have NOTHING to lose by going to a few therapy visits. You only have something important to gain.

If you think you have an open mind, then why don't you find a therapist and commit to 5 sessions. If, after 5 sessions, your therapist agrees that the problem is the way you look, then you'll probably get a lot more sympathy from us. But, the therapist would have to specifically say: "Gary, there is NO hope for you". It can't be you reading between the lines as seems to be your MO.