Here's the thing, Igster. We're a pretty supportive bunch here. We have tons of compassion, because ALL of us have some reason to be feeling like crap. 99% of the time, I read people's posts on this board and say "gee. I don't blame them one bit for feeling like that". With you, however, it's very different. You say that you've given all of this concrete 'evidence', but most of what you've said sounds like extrapolation to me. I was believing you at the beginning when you said you got teased a lot as a kid, but now I'm starting to wonder about that, too.

Hey -- if you want to drop it, then let's all just drop it, then. If you can say to us "I DON'T WANT TO CHANGE SO STOP TRYING TO GET ME TO GET HELP FOR MYSELF", then we can just have social conversations from now on. We are assuming that you're here because you want help and that you want to improve, so we're trying to help. Your mind seems pretty shut tight, though, so we're just wasting our time if you don't truly want to change.

Things I understand:
- people can be cruel
- people are not always cruel
- you've been hurt as a kid by things people said
- you continue to be hurt as an adult by things you think people must be thinking
- some women are not attracted to you
- if a woman is not hitting on you, then it means she thinks you're horrendously ugly

I can only hope that if you ever were to meet a woman you were interested in, that you would never bring up your concerns in this area. It would be an enormous turnoff. But see? The problem is you FEEL this way, even if you manage to hold it in when you talk to women. That kind of stuff shows through clear as day.

And you didn't answer whether you're going to try a therapist or not.