I feel for you sincerely! It's never easy to give up on someone you love. After all who has control over who they love? Homosexual, Bisexual, or Heterosexual, they are still human and deserving of love as are you. From one human to another we all deserve love and compassion. Sometimes we have to look beyond ourselves and love people for who they are as humans and not who we want them to be. I am struggling with this myself and can empathize with your pain.
I too am feeling great loss due to someone who has left me and is utterly confused. The depression is unbearable at times since I moved across the country to be with her and her two sons. I feel loss on an unimaginable scale. I feel alone and unable to concentrate on getting my own beautiful life back since I left all familiarity 1800 miles away and started a new self motivated sales career, only to be rejected by someone i truly adore. I feel like I lost a family that was never mine to loose. I had faith in her coming around but she seems incapable being a true friend much less anything else. I do truly love this person and was genuinely happy when I met up with her after 16 years of not knowing each other. I met her when I was a kid and she is such as special person that unfortunately has been through a very difficult life. What started as an understanding friendship/relationship has ended up extremely painful and I feel the need to let go but do not know how. I feel stuck in the position I put myself in and have no true friends where I now live. I cry and cry and cry at night and do not sleep well at all. Changing locations, careers, and losing the most valuable 3 people in your life has been a great torment. She also cheated on me with a woman. Is this natural! I have always been a survivor but this one has me close to the edge and I can't seem to get it together because I feel as if I am stewing in the decisions I made to change my life for the chance at happiness with whom I perceived to be my soul mate and best friend. Turns out, I was a rebound. She is one of my best friends little sisters. Ouch!!! Please advice anyone! The pain and suffering are leading me to a dark unhealthy place.