As a guy growing up with a ton of anxiety, I also felt I wasn't good looking in the eyes of other women. I felt that there was something the matter with me, or that I wasn't deserving of having a girlfriend. But I was wrong and I learned in my mid-twenties, which is when I started dating seriously, that I could have a relationship. Now I'm in my forties , and with good bit of therapy behind me . I've been married from the 15 years. Hang in there. You'll meet somebody. Maybe a counselor would help?