Me too... I have T tomorrow (well later today... as you can tell I don't sleep well), and I so look forward to it. I know I have to talk, but I like the sound of his voice......... hearing it makes me feel like there's someone OUT there.. yanno? He's funny, intelligent, attractive and it doesn't matter if I'm just myself because the coolest thing is that I pay him so I can just BE ME!

Maybe if I could learn how NOT to be me, I would develop other relationships... and I try, but "me" keeps popping back out and ruins everything.