HI DSVirginia82,

I was phys/sex/emo abused in childhood and not allowed to be angry or protect myself.

I've had lots of hurt feelings and anger inside. I never wanted to get angry because I might become just like them.

At one point I found a plastic bat and allowed myself to beat up my pillows and the bed to physically let out some of the anger that I neede to release. It was hard to do that, but it made me feel some better. Some people beat up phone books with rolled up newspapers - it is kinda noisy and that helps to let it out. Sometimes (only if alone) I holler too, really loud and long and just let it all out. It feels really good - but I do have to protect myself from myself and stay safe. One day I beat up a 55 gallon Rubbermaid trashcan and split my knuckles open when my hand slipped - but it was still worth it. Most of this stuff is ways to let the anger OUT of my mind and my body. If any of this resonates with you maybe you can try it out.

Feelings ARE NOT wrong. We just have to learn how to have them and stay safe, too.

Hugs and Hang in there!

Leslie